What have you done today to make you feel proud?

FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER IN 8 MONTHS, I HAVE FELT GLIMPSE OF HOPE! My first non-emo post is god knows how long! This calls for celebrations! (Shit, I sound like Mr Fong)

Yes, I'm still suicidal but I can feel hope for the first time since July last year. For some strange reason, reality shows are what put your life back on track. Okay, I have been watching 'The biggest loser" for about 2 weeks now (no I do not want to lose weight. Or be fat.) and I realise how motivational that show is. The theme song is 'Proud' by Heather Small, but there is nothing small about that song (haha joke...). But seriously, I have influenced by it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ytvoRQk4Wg
Tell me if you are influenced by it. Or not.

So now I have one motto about hope amist all the suicidal mottos.
And after very shitty four days, the past two days weren't so bad. Yes, there were downs (like when someone called me an animal (cruelity against ANIMALS) so that sucked. But I didn't think about it much after that. But I'm going to fail 2.4km again so let's hope the hope stays even after I fail. XD

Newsflash: I have decided against having 'Kevin' in my name. I realised that they are all the same I don't want to be associated with them. No, there are no evil intentions but I feel that I don't want to become them. Besides, there can only be one confi name. EVERYONE, I AM SEAN NATHANIEL LEE.

Oh and I have planned the perfect suicide. With the help of Moses, HK and Lum. Check it out!
1) Go for a plastic surgery
2) Shoplift extremely gorgeous clothes (formal wear?? maybe...)
3) Hang myself and get a friend to put me in the hall during National Day.

Ok byeez,.

(Ask yourself: What have you done today to make you feel proud?)