Growing up young

Now, you know your life sucks if you have a bad things for 4 consecutive days. You also know your life sucks when you start thinking about your childhood (or the lack of it)

Friday
I'M NOT IN FRICKING LLTC!!!! AN ASSHEAD TOOK MY PLACE IN IT!!! HOW ANGRY AM I, FUCKING ANGRY. Toby and Qing Ke tried to cheer me up but I still felt really angry. To whom I shall not name, I WANT TO CUT YOUR HEAD, PLACE IN CONCENTRATED NITRIC ACID, DROP POTASSIUM INTO THE ACID WITH A LIGHTED BURSUN BURNER NEARBY. POP GOES THE REMAINS OF YOUR HEAD!!!

Saturday
I woke up really early for HSK. LIKE 7am early. Worse, I think I'm going to fail HSK and I felt like crap when everyone said 'It was damn easy!" etc. I went to Far East with (Lum, Moses, Nevin, ZY, Hongkiat and a two other people who I forgot). We talked about the possibilities of me making more friends if I were less weird. I left and went to church. Played 'Don't forget the verse', (you know, Don't forget the lyrics Catholic edition) I had to complete the song, As the Deer, and I GOT IT RIGHT!!! Left early to go to school for GOH for the founder's dinner. GUESS WHAT! When I was selling bears, THE ADULTS JUST 'CASUALLY IGNORED ME'!! Worse, at the dinner, the band and dancers were performing BUT ALL THE ADULTS WERE TOO BUSY TALKING TO EACH OTHER! WHERE IS YOUR RESPECT???? For some reason, I will never (neither will Nevin nor Lum) see myself growing up to be like them.

Sunday
I went to town and got a haircut. My sis and I left early and my parents CONSTANTLY CALLED US ASKING WHERE WE WERE AND WHY WE HAD LEFT. The stupid argument lasted through dinner and I was very upset. So was my sis. My parent's inflexibility to adapt to a situation and lack of logic and passing messages skills prove to be a boiling point for me.

Monday
LLTC crap again... La da ha... Pipeng was scolding me through Chemistry so I got kinda pissed at him and so we ended up daoing each other for a while. The Merimum webster quiz fails and so me, sherman, Pipeng, Shannon, Le yong and Andrew cheated the way through. HEHE. Before my guitar class, the bakerzin service FAILS!! The chicken didn't come on time. I had to ask for my soup for a few times etc. VERY annoyed. OH and he who shall not be named is congratulated: again. Yay him... FUCK OFF

Yeah so I was thinking about why I didn't have a real childhood, at least for me. I'm raised in a family of 3 sisters, my dad is rarely around, I have a skin disease that will break out in rashes when I sweat like a dog and overheat. I have never played with a ball until I was in Primary 2, in school. I only owned a soccer ball when I was 12 and it is now deflated. My constant negative outlook on life was due to this horrible childhood (or at least what minute portion available to call childhood) now leaves me the way I am. I don't enjoy being called weird but I'm not acting just to get attention. I change myself because I simply don't know how or where to start. I'm trapped at home with overprotective parents. I don't see the world the way most do and I'm just torn apart. Waiting to pick up the pieces...

Just to be torn apart again