Because the End is near doesn't mean Goodbye

The season is 'fall'. So is our moods...

I'm not as depressed as I am and I feel a little better. I change the playlist according to my mood. This time is 'Pick Me Up' for all the chill back songs. I kinda got to emotions and realised that well the people have to leave and new things to be made. PSL... I hope I can. I will try my best and I thank the Sec 4s who were great PSLs to us. It's my turn to lead. Wish Me Luck!! :)

Alright enough with goodbyes! I need to stop. (Slaps Self) Haha. I'm going to be like the upper Sec in like three months. How does one become a big brother when all his life he's a younger brother to all? Sigh. I have a lot to learn. And teach.

I am going to miss them, though. I think it's very late, but not too late to make a change. I realised that if they are never going to see me again, I should leave them on a good note. More friends are better than more enemies.

I am still me, just more sad, depressed, emo (Insert other words that me sad here). I owe people apologies and I need to study.

For reference this is Emo post no.2.

I also found this note in one of my old pjs. I leave my best friends and big brothers on this.

"Sometimes I get too busy or too preoccupied to try to say the little things I feel deep down inside but knowing me is just everything that I call HAPPINESS. -- Sean's old pjs :)

(PS IT'S ABOUT SELF DISCOVERY. AND IT WORKS. LOL)

A Little Bit Longer but I Still Would't be fine

I'm depressed, I'm upset and I have the 'Goth' scribbled on my arm. There is clearly something wrong with me.

Tmr is the last event I can gate crash, seeing that I am 'invited' for every subsequent event. Almost every event. It's the Sec 4 Graduation. And I'm confused at some point. It's good riddance to some Sec 4 who are dirt (which is er... 1 or 2) but a final farewell to at least a hundred of awesome Sec 4 who knows me. Personally, I feel that many just started to see the real me.

Quoting from Demi Lovato's "This is me" from Camp Rock (which was a utter disappointment): "This is real. This is me. I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be." ... "No more hiding who I want to be. This is me."

I think I have given some the wrong impression sometimes. I am really sorry and I think I really learned that I don't know what I have until it's gone... But my sincerest apologises cannot erase the effects of my actions and words.

To all Sec 4s, this is it. Your life will move onto JC or Poly. Your choices are up to you now and I hope you remember the four years in SJI. Come back and visit. To the prefects, I am trying to make the funfair possible. If it is, come and join in.

Then there is exam. Gosh. I think I'm just going to die soon. I think everyone is experiencing the same but I feel like there is more pressure to stay alive than to do well.

If I have one cent for every time I feel like dying, I will be own all the money in the world.

The worse thing to give a hopeless person is hope. I really felt like dying and when my illness was not life-threatening, I kinda sunk. I also don't know why I'm still living.

The best thing: Surgery

The worse thing: Hell


OH, I'm putting up my favourite songs on the imeem. I think my songs are going to be depression songs.

PS. IF YOU KNOW A GOOD THERAPIST, RECOMMEND 'EM TO ME. THANKS.

Short Sweet Sad

I feel different so I redid my blog. Comment Pls.

I have nothing to say now. To a lot of people as well.

Maybe when I'm not so glum I'll post again.

See Ya soon.

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